kinda like the disney vault, only not really

with great anticipation (or is it trepidation), i give you a few gems from the journal of mcfrenzy.

November 26th, 2010

"Today didn’t really feel like Friday because I’ve had every day off this week. All of the days are starting to blur together. For the record, I had a super-weird dream last night. Basically, Yo-Yo Ma was my roommate...what the junk was Yo-Yo Ma doing as my roommate? I sort of remember thinking in the dream, “I can’t believe I haven’t told my parents about this yet! It’s so cool! Yo-Yo Ma is my roommate! Ka-ching!”

November 27th, 2010

Oh yeah, and did I mention that we decorated our Christmas tree tonight?! I am starting to get concerned about the amount of ornaments that hang from that thing. Seriously, we didn’t even use all of them, and that thing looked like it was about to tip over. Mom said to me, “If you and Ike ever get married, the tree will be lighter.” I said, “IF we get married?! Sheesh, you better hope we’re not living in the basement 20 years from now or that thing will tip right over!”

12/21/08-Caleb asked mom during sacrament meeting, “Should I yell ‘gun?’”

12/21/08-Caleb asked me before family prayer, “Should I pull my pants down in a restaurant?’”

12/18/08-Ellie said this in family prayer: “Please help Kenzie not to get drunk.”

June 27th, 2010 I walked into the office with the cookies and it was like I had opened a lemonade stand in the desert. It’s so funny to feed boys sometimes. I dunno why.

July 19th 2010 @ the nursing home

The next lady I talked to was named Iva. She was fiddling with her dentures the whole time we were talking but I didn’t realize what they were until halfway through the conversation when she opened her mouth and popped them in. When it was time for us to head to the ward BBQ, I gave her a hug goodbye and said I would be back in the Fall. She looked so hopeful and sweet, how can I not come back? When I gave her a hug she held me tight and said, “I love you!” Oh man…I honestly love old people. LOVE them. Hope this doesn’t sound weird to me 50 years down the road…

July 21st 2010-Chels, Lori, Ash, and myself went to G’s and got the Holy Cow Platter. When we got there we discovered that it was 13 scoops. We figured we could eat half there and save the other half. Too bad we just ate it all in about 20 minutes. I’m still disgusted with myself. I felt so gross afterwards… The only way I could justify eating that thing again would be if there were 4 more people with us and if I was pregnant. The end.

from the best night of our lives, october 16th, 2011

We decided to go exploring by the AF Ampitheatre because there were a zillion cars parked all around it, and the only way that that many people would gather in American Fork on a Saturday night ( I thought) is if Sarah Palin was giving a speech there or something. And it was 10 o’clock at night, so I decided to rule that out. When we first tried to ask people what was going on (lots of people were walking up the hill), they looked at us like we were crazy. Correction: they looked at TP like she was crazy. Allie stopped her van to ask some people, and TP could only get out the words “Ummmmmmmmm…” They stared at us like we were on drugs, so Allie gunned it. I thought I was gonna pee my pants cause I was laughing so hard.

“You know what I just realized? I am…mean! I am bitter about love.” –Chelsea Ann Bedke on December the 5^th, 2010

December 7th, 2010

Today I might have done a little bit of mango research. Do you realize how weird that last sentence sounded? Court and Chels were making fun of my awesome mango knowledge. I don’t even like mangoes. This is sad. And funny, right? Please tell me it’s funny.

5/1/2010

I was in the middle of a dream about Liz and her fiancée, only this time it was Nick, not Mark, and they were getting engagement pictures taken in the McKenzie River...weird. I guess that was my subconscious mind's way of telling me that I'm still not adjusted to the idea of Liz getting married.

10/30/2009

At 3am the morning crew came in and apparently they decided to dress up for work [in honor of Halloween]. One girl was walking down a dark hallway towards me and her face was painted. So...I couldn't really tell what I was seeing. Because I was so stinkin' tired, neither the flight nor the fight response was working. As she walked by me (I was frozen in place) she said "Good morning!" and that's when I realized she was human. The boys could not stop laughing at me. Oh, and I totally biffed it on the rug on my way out the door as I was leaving. I was so tired I just laid there in the middle of the hallway.

4/7/2010

Tonight at Institute I sat in my desk before class, just thinking/stewing/pondering. Mostly about Mexico. And how scared I am, worried that I am disappointing people, and feeling like I am somehow "cheating" by doing this instead of a mission. Negative Nancy, right? Then Proverbs 3:5-7 came into my mind out of "nowhere." We all know it actually came from the Spirit. The Lord is always ready and willing to answer our prayers when we let Him in!

6/2/2010

Spanish class was just funny; all of those crazy R.M.'s have really grown on me. Hermano Alba decided that we should start doing a good news minute before class, but the name "good news minute" was "too femme." So he changed the name to the "gnarly news." Ha! Then all of the news we had from a few of the guys was about girls in their lives. So much for avoiding femininity.

6/4/2010

Note to self: attempting cartwheels on the lawn at 12am doesn't make my chances of actually being able to do one go up. It just gives me fat bruises.

8/9/2010 (this is the entire entry)

15 hours in a car...is too many.

9/5/2010

Ike's birthday partay and dinner were fantastico--homemade tomato soup+homemade rolls. Ellie was really hyper during the opening of the presents (when is she not?). She gave Isaac a book she bought at some garage sale, called "Cupid Explains it All." Caleb said, "Ellie, Cupid's just a false god, so you shouldn't be giving that to Isaac anyway." What da?!

9/11/2010

As for my first race, this is what I learned: you should learn to eliminate the word "can't" from your vocabulary when you set a goal if you really want to achieve it.

11/16/2010 *the day I wore a shower cap to the grocery store cuz I lost a bet*

It wasn't really that bad...at first I was really embarrassed when I put it on, cuz I could feel everyone staring at me. I guess I know how people with physical deformities feel now. A little empathy never hurt anybody. After awhile it was kinda fun to do my shopping with a straight face and an ugly shower cap on my head. When the cashier checked me out she asked how I was doing. I was temped to say, "Oh, I'm feeling very clean, thanks!" Ha! But I didn't.

11/31/2010

Today my eyes were opened and I had the biggest a-ha moment evah. I feel like a new person, and it feels really good. Yesterday was kind of yucky, not gonna lie, but there's always darkness before the sun comes out, right? This new Kenzie is going to be assertive. She's going to love herself and not apologize for it. She's going to serve someone every day, even if it's just little things. She will pray with sincerity and hope, believing in the plan that Heavenly Father has for her. She will keep smiling, keep being a friend, keep being confident in where she's going. She will find joy in the little things.

12/2/ 2010

I was sitting at my desk, in front of my computer, minding my own bidnez, when one of those red-vested librarian dudes walked by. He tripped on my computer cord and simultaneously winked at me! I think everyone saw...and I was weirded out. Some people are too generous with their winks. Just sayin'.

so glad He gave us memories

so glad I can be myself with my bestos

so glad she's my bestest friend

so glad i'm out of the one-piece jumpsuit phase

so glad my parents take us to explore new places

so glad she got married and is still my Lizzy

so glad she was my roommate, so glad she's going on a mission (yeah, that girl..heheh)

so glad she will do silly things with me

so glad families are forevah

so glad we have such beautiful temples

so glad church museums let you dress up like this

so glad they are ours

so glad i know how to pose now

so glad BYU-Idaho gives us long weekends so I can visit

so glad I went to that high school and so glad I graduated ;)

so glad he returned with honor

so glad I made the best friends of my life in a little town called Rexburg

so glad He gives us four seasons, especially autumn

so glad He gives us killer sunsets every day from our back window

so glad my dad is the kinda guy he is

so glad I have freckles (and cute friends...haha)

so glad we went to EFY that year

so glad I lived by the Oregon Coast for half of my life

so glad they both got haircuts (and glad we had the furball for so long)

so glad she has good balance

so glad we have no inhibitions

so glad mom took this picture

so glad He led me to Mexico

so glad such games exist

so glad (some) reality TV exists so we can laugh at it

so glad I possess exactly zero holey-armpit-T's (sorry Elise)

so glad I lived with these people for most of 2010

so glad they make me laugh this hard for no reason

so glad I am me and no one else

so tell me, friends, why are you glad?

and i slept and i slept and i slept

i know, my grammar is terrible today.

but honestly that conference weekend wasn't nearly long enough for me. so i am going to have bad grammar just this once (and i'm even de-capitalizing the i's. de-capitalizing probably isn't a word, either. for shame!).

i did successfully make the pumpkin pancakes with nutmeg whipped cream. here's the recipe (don't deny you want it)...oh and I used buttermilk instead of milk+vinegar. just fyi. the nutmeg whipped cream was a mixture of whipped cream...and nutmeg (so much for the element of surprise), plus a little bit of sugar and vanilla extract.

i did enjoy every conference talk, most especially D. Todd Christofferson's, President Eyring's, and Dieter F. Uchtdorf's. They were speaking right to me, I think. But isn't that how is always is?

oops. i deviated from my bad grammar streak. sorry, i know you were enjoying it.

i did go to the annual familiy photo shoot, but alas, the leaves had not yet turned so we didn't go up the canyon. that and everybody seemed to be in a hurry. but that's how conference weekend is when you have to get back to rexburg by sunday night. noodles (kenzie-slang for "dangit").

one thing i did not seem to have the easiest time doing this weekend was sleeping. and i really needed to catch up on sleep (remember the whole part about me being in college? ok, just checkin'). monday morning came and i still hadn't caught up. i usually take a nap in between my 10am class and my 11:30 class. guess when I woke up?

11:30.

consider this my first and last missed class of the semester. i really hate missing class, honestly, i do! but i think i just needed that sleep. my nap lasted for a glorious 2.5 hours. i could make a list of everything i might have accomplished in that amount of time, but i think sleeping was what i would have ended up doing anyway.

alas, now i have a little bit more energy than i usually do at 4:30 on monday afternoon, so i think i will go and sweat it out before the rain really comes bustin' out of the clouds. yep, the weather finally realized it was october and changed its mind about being 70 degrees all of the time.

i can't say i'm disappointed. see #3 on happy list below.

today mcfrenzy is happy because:

1. she said the blessing on her and chelsea's food in spanish. hasn't done that in awhile.

2. she imagined herself at the top of a mountain overlooking Puebla, Mexico. good image.

3. she walked home from the library enjoying the musty smell of rain, leaves, and autumness.

4. she wore her purple striped shirt with the buttons and everybody complimented her on it.

5. she rode her bike to the grocery store for bananas. there's something very fulfilling about riding your bike to the grocery store in autumn.

6. she fell asleep reading her book of contemporary american poetry and felt like spending the whole day writing poems. but don't worry, she didn't. she just slept some more. :)

7. she decided to write an entire happy list in 3rd person.

8. she listened to mister jack johnson sing "imagine" and realized she liked it better than the original. sorry, john.

9. she found the most amazing scripture in Ether 12:4, please go read it.

10. she woke up and realized she missed her family a lot. she just saw them, what is wrong with her? oh well.

11. she got to sit in the park above the valley and talk to TP on Saturday night. only thirty minutes, but she just really likes that girl and that park, so the combination of the two made the short amount of time worth it. oh and elder greene, he's the bee's knees.

12. she saw a picture of griffey that was really old but made her smile so hard she almost cried. her parents liked it too. and yes, she hijacked it so all of you could see it. thanks, TP.

happy monday :)

i just want to unwind in my time machine

Oregon always feels like a million miles away.

But really it's only 15 hours.

I think that maybe it's because every place I go to in that state

has some memory connected to it,

and memories that old feel far away.

We have to dive really deep sometimes

to conjure them up.

Places like...

The curb by Dayspring Fellowship,

where I tied my shoes before

embarking on another brutal River Walk

(all in the name of wrapping paper, yo).

The church with the kite-shaped roof,

where I showed mom my Ton of Reading

gold medal for the first time.

Funny how things that seem so huge

when you're a 5th grader

just end up in your closet years later.

Anywhere near Archie Lane, where I grew up

with my best friend, Liz.

River Road Park, which is all remodeled and

modernized now, but "back in my day,"

it was completely made of wood.

I think I spent 75% of my summer days

in that park

or getting dunked under the water at the pool

by certain persons who will remain unnamed.

The River Road Chapel,

where mom taught us that first year of seminary.

Where we met early in the morning for

scripture mastery, amazing race games,

and donuts.

I tried to find all of the secret hiding places

in that building (there's a lot, btw).

As we pulled out of my grandparents' driveway for what

could be the last time {in Eugene},

I started thinking about

how much of me is in Eugene,

and vice-versa.

And that made me kinda sad, because

I don't think I'll be going back for

a long time.

This time, for the 15-hour drive back home,

a few old memories from growing up there

started to take shape

in my brain...

watching Rugrats while mom fixed my hair and I waited

for the bus to take me to kindergarten

the smell of Pert shampoo and Irish Spring Soap...

every time I smell it I think of

Grandma Neda's house.

retrieving the wiffle balls from the other

side of the fence

when Ikey hit them over.

I wonder why he never got them...

going to Christmas fairs with my mom

and sometimes Cheryl (lizzy's mom),

Once they caved and bought us

one of those ridikkilus

cinnamon rolls.

You know, the ones

as big as your head.

going to many soccer practices

but hardly ever playing in any games.

all of them were on sunday,

offf course.

Splash!

The wave pool with expensive tubes for rental...

of course, we knew that all you had to do

was wait until someone dropped theirs,

and it was game time, baby.

the old brown furniture in the front room

at 311 Mint.

I jumped on it, made fake commercials on it,

sneakily ate on it,

and yes, once I peed on it.

But I was sleepwalking, ahem.

the many trips to the Oregon Coast.

this time when we visited

I tried to take my time walking on the sand,

looking at starfish,

and breathing in that fishy smell.

the scrapes on my legs from the tide-pool-incident

are almost gone....

Camp Alpine--from the first time I visited

at age 8, to the last time at age 15,

I always said I'd rather go there

for summer vacation than

Disneyland.

Why?

Because at Disneyland, you can't

share a 2-man tent with 6 girls,

prank the 3rd year's latrines,

wear ridiculous beanies,

eat dutch oven deliciousness,

leave mail for your secret sister,

get lost on an unmarked trail,

swim with water snakes,

go on a solo hike at sunset,

or make up jingles all day long.

watching the following shows

which aren't on anymore

but they should be:

just don't forget to remember the olden days, mis amigos.

now go enjoy the present!

*mcfrenzy*

whoa....

Yes, 'tis true.
Ikey is gonna be across the hall from me again
in less than 24 hours.
Weird.
You've done us all proud, Elder.

Welcome home!!!

thank-you note to Spring 2010

this has nothing to do with finals.

i just really dig the aesthetic-ness of it.

me=super impatient.
me=wishing for a fast forward button.
me=one semester away from being a...senior.
me=kalfjdl;sajfdls;akjfd;la

today was my last sunday in the 45th ward for 6 weeks
After choir practice and before church
Chels and I wrote a poem for the Bishopbric:
Every Sunday they arise
Because they are the coolest guys
Bishop Cram's gots the GTO
Got a question? He's in the know.
Brother Hastings digs football
And always magnifies his call
Brother Blake/Bro. Luigi
Went to Italy, not to Fiji
All in all, they rock the ward
With their service to the Lord

We recited it to the Bishop (he was the only one present) after church
Apparently it was a "knee-slapper"
He laughed and laughed
Then shook our hands and said seriously,
"Thank you."
We tried not to laugh at ourselves.
We made it to the door of the Romney Building.

Ohh, Rexburg.
I'm really excited for Utah.
But as always, I am sad to leave you.

So I would like to return the favor. Thanks for:

da roommates. they treat me right.

Spanish 321 (remember when I was scared of that class?)

here's a conversation I listened to
going on behind me in the middle of
a grammar lecture in Spanish on Friday:
John #1: Dude, do you think you could eat your arm? I mean,
if you were starving and had to do it. Would you?
Levi: Probably....yeah...yeah, totally, I would.
If I had to. I would. What about you [me]?
Me: Uhhh, no. (stifling laughter....remember this was during class)
Isn't that so endearing? I think it is.

British Lit. Because of Brother Brugger,
my writer's notebook is full of
jokes and inspiration.
Mostly jokes.

Doctrines of the Gospel.
I know so many things about the gospel now
that make me love it even more.
Thank you Brother Allison,
for teaching with the Spirit.

The 1st floor of the library.
You housed me more
than my own apartment.
However, you never provided me
a date. I thought that was a
guarantee if I studied there...
Hmm. Maybe I read the
contract wrong.

Marie, my women's health teacher,
for reminding me that
the best teachers love their students so much
that they tell them to eat their pie
for breakfast
and then to exercise every day. :)

The R.C. As usual, I got
a plethora of funny work memories.
Some people...just don't know
the difference between
a verb
and a noun
But I think I straightened them out.

The lovely view from my window.

Broulim's, thanks for providing me with
overpriced produce.
You made me thankful
for my parent's garden.

Everyone who served me this semester
even though they didn't have to
ash, for making me gluten free goodies
taylor, for offering to fix my car
lori, for driving me to class
chels, for being my friend
anna, for helping me study
the temple workers, for getting my backpack :)
dan, for driving me to utah and back 2x
court, for making me laugh
bishop, for always listening

Heavenly Father, for leading me here in the first place.

Oh yeah. And I can't forget...
the taco bus,
for making me remember
that food can taste good.

Seee youuu in Septeeemmmbberr.
(with Ike)
{our last fhe}